LOVE HELP

I lose feelings really fast and it's not that my expectations are to high. But I feel like there's something just mentally wrong with me but I maybe wrong so I wanted to see if anyone here can help. I'm a very depressed anti social piece of shit and everytime I have to think about being in a relationship I just give up, I hate trying. And I don't wanna disappoint anyone. Also not to mention everyone in my life has always just left me and I've been emotionally abused so I was just wondering like I'm I being over dramatic or like???