Please no judgment.

I am posting this anonymously because people on here can be so rude, an this topic is one I just need help with. I am choosing not to breast feed. To me, it is not something I feel comfortable doing. My mother has formula fed all of us children, so it always just seemed normal to me. I have a very busy lifestyle an will be going back to work ASAP... last but not least. I have depression. I have went off of meds during this pregnancy and I feel like it was the absolutely worst decision an honestly find comfort in finding the right meds for me again, an as much as anyone will argue "safe boob meds".. I feel more comfortable feeding formula knowing there isn't anything possibly mixed in. I feel guilty, I do... that I feel so strongly about not even wanting to try... is there anyone else? I get so stressed like I am making an awful decision. If there is anyone who can chat with me about it that would be great..... thank you.