my heart hurts

Hey guy. It's late and I'm up crying my eyes out. I've lost the love of my life. I've tried to text him but it's a dead number. But I still text anyway. I want him back I miss him so much I feel pain. He was my best friend since we split 2 and a half years ago. I thought about him everyday. But cause I'm stubborn I've just realised what I've lost. Cause I stood up for myself and my family I've lost the love of my life. I said good bye I was so mad and upset with him never text him. He was my soul mate. I'm lost his name is Chrissy sines live in Ireland or Surrey I don't know where he will be if anyone knows him tell him browneyes says turn ya phone on!!!! I've tried