Ready to be Ready Again

I don't know If this Will make sense. But I want another baby so badly. My SO and I know we aren't ready right now but I wish we were ready. I'm ready to BE READY for another. I dont know why I'm so emotional about it either. I cry sometimes because I want another baby but can't have one. My son is almost 2 and it was always my dream to have kids close in age. But with the way things are looking- it'll be years before we will start TTC. I'm just disappointed. Sorry. Needed to vent.