Testing like an idiot

Erica
Every single time I take a HPT I go in with my head knowing it will be negative (obviously hoping it is positive.) So when it comes up negative I feel like such an idiot and beat myself up for even thinking I could be pregnant. How do I shut this down? Any happy mantras you ladies tell yourself to cheer up and stay away from the self-hatred? My inconsistent cycles make every month a game of anxiety and dread. This TTC stuff is emotionally exhausting! Needing a boost to keep me going!