Having a hard time

Just need to let it out and have no one to talk to so I decided to post it on here.

I seem to just be having a really hard time today! Wondering will it ever be my turn to post cute lregnancy photos? And ultrasound pics? Or a suprise were pregnant gift to my SO? Materninty pics? Gender reveal pics? Gorgeous pics of my newborn?

I usually handle this stuff pretty good and pray and just tell my self it will happen when God is ready for it to happen for you.

But then I look at all my friends who dont even try and are having babies or who say ok were gonna start trying and boom pregnant!

Idk whats wrong with me today but im really struggling! And to top it all off I started my period 4-5 days before I was even suppose to!

Sorry guys just needed to yet it out!