starting to give up
Conceived my beautiful little girl within three months. (She is now 2) I took this for granted so badly. After two months of trying with no result I gave up. I felt so defeated, I mean I was young first baby seriously how hard could it have been (selfish to think I know) month 3 we did the deed once, I wasn't interested in the whole ttc at that point. The end of the month came, no af and I knew I was pregnant. Took a test and there it was my BFP! Scariest 9 months of my life as my little girl felt the need to worry me through it all. (Still a cheeky little madam ❤️).
Ttc second baby, putting every bit of effort I have in my body to concieve baby no2. And I did, in November I conceived what I thought was going to be another healthy little baby. To which heartache struck when I lost my little gem at 5 weeks. I have never felt pain like it, I honestly didn't think I was going to come out the other side. I did, with support and love from my partner and family and seeing my beautiful first borns innocent face every day I got through. It still hurts now but I've come to realise my little gem was needed up in heaven 👼.
Now January, and ttc is very much underway. We have tried so much more this month than any other month through this journey. BUT I feel so defeated this month already and af isn't even in sight yet. If this month isn't our month I'm throwing in the towel.
I took everything for granted with ttc for her my pregnancy until now, I've realised I am a mummy and I'm very lucky to have my baby, so I'm going to put all the effort I have in my body to her and just hope someday I can give her a baby brother or sister.
(Sorry for long post I just had to let it out)
Baby dust to you all 👶
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