so incredibly pissed off 😠

I can't express how angry I am !!!
I lost my baby 3 nights ago and between been in agony in my heart I can't help feeling so pissed off that I had to lose mine when my brothers gf is almost full term has smoked all the way through ! Drank some times been so careless and wreck less but she gets to keep hers ! Then my friend had to have an early scan to see if she wanted to keep her baby ( if she was early enough to justify it she was going to terminate it ) she's now finding out the gender next week ! Another friend is 18 weeks now and her baby's dad is wanted and she's not gunna let him see her baby yet me and my husband are the most loving couple everyone keeps saying if cudnt of happened to a worser couple ! My husbands brothers gf is almost full term she's eaten dodgy prawns ,went in saunas and jacuzzis everything possible they all cud do they've done I'm so pissed off I tried to do everything I cud to stay pregnant everything ! The world is so harsh 😔