feeling lost

Sorry this is new to me but here it is. I have been battling severe depression and anxiety since well early teens I'm 25 now with 2kids and a husband. This time should be amazing but it's not I love my kids and husband but I can't stand to be around anyone. I cried myself to sleep last night and my husband all he did was lay down and go to sleep like I was not there. I'm so lost and don't know how to pick myself up and move on. I had such a bad past my stepdad touched me since I was 5 my mother still denied that was raped and had my daughter before 19 yes she was the product she is 6now  but I need help I lost everything and everyone I don't have friends I don't go out my husband does it all and starting to think they are better off with out me