Gave up on trying. Think maybe god has better plan. Husband never home and flies around doing what he wants. I sit her alone again while he was out partying and letting me know he can't make home tonight. Gives time to think. We want kids so bad. We have been trying for 7 years with two failed pregnancies. I used to think I was cursed but maybe it's a blessing Bc having kids will not work for us. Maybe it's time to just accept the fact I will never be a mother.