Idk how to feel

I don't really know why I am writing this here, maybe I just want to vent, Idk. I am having a miscarriage right now, I just came back from the hospital. I spend 8 hours in the ER and they just told me that. Idk how to feel this was my 4th pregnancy. I kind of feel embarrassed of having to tell my family and friends that I miscarried again. I feel bad for my husband because because I feel like I'm less than a woman and because I am not able to helping out taking care of our baby or with house chores, and I feel guilty for feeling sad when my 7 months old baby wants to play with me. I am tired of faking feeling ok. I don't want to have to tell my family that I am getting over with but they took pretty bad my last miscarried. I feel kinda alone and I am mad at God.