my ex

It's my exs birthday and all I want to do is say I love you and miss you so god damn much. I left them thinking I was unhappy in the relationship but now I don't know I've been crying for an hour and I just want them to call me baby and say they will take me back but I don't think we should get back together at the same time. I'm so confused and lost and all I want to do is have someone to love me. I want them to love me...