I hate today...

I don't know if I'm just being super emotional or if I have a reason to be sad. We got engaged 1/31/16 which was second happiest day of my life (first, is when I found out we are having a baby). Well in between now and then, we have had so much trouble in our relationship. He has been caught lying and cheating months after our engagement and we haven't done any kind of planning since. We might as well not be engaged anymore... we have been in couples counseling and since then have a baby on the way but I guess tomorrow just reminds me of where I thought we would be in our relationship now... married, and excited about our new addition. I may just be super hormonal too.. but the anniversary of our engagement has me in the dumps. I can't stop thinking about where we should be in our relationship and how happy I was on this day and it seems like life has made a 180... I'm just really fucking sad.