I want to shut myself out from my husband. He hasn't been talking much to me lately. Our relationship is fine and routine. He's getting too comfortable that he forgets to ask me how I feel or how I'm doing. The things I say and do goes out the other ear. The communication isn't the same. Ppl say talk it out or get counseling. Can't do any of that if he's not paying attention. I've gotten to the point where I feel like I have a hole inside of me and I wouldn't care to speak with him. I'm hurt. If he can't see that then I shouldn't be trying so hard. I live so far away from family and friends. I'm going further into isolation.

For the first time today I told myself I wish I was single again. I wish I wasn't married and that I could do all these things to support myself. These were things I always said I would never say. The empty hole inside me is growing. 😢😢😢😢