I'm having a hard time communicating to my husband what about TTC that is really hurting me . I've been saying a little over a year now that I want a baby & it seems like everyone else is getting pregnant but me . So as we were saying our prayers last night , I wanted to ask God for a baby but I didn't feel comfortable exprepessing my deep inner thoughts aloud (my husband is about the only other human that has access to my true feelings) . I then told myself , how can I expect God to bless me with something that I'm too afraid to ask him for with my husband ??? I then had a 20 min emotional talk with my husband explaining why I've been so upset lately and what a baby means to me & it felt really good to say it . Afterwards, I led us into prayer & I feel Ah-Maz-inggggggggg guys . I honestly feel like  God heard my cry & whether I get the baby or not , I know he's giving me the strength to keep trying.