need advice on how to vent

Sorry if this is long I haven't told anyone how i felt in days. Me and my fiance hit a rough patch a few days ago, i ask him to move out and give me some time alone our wedding was in 8 months as much as i dont want to cancel it ik I need to. Ive been crying feeling alone with him gone besides my papa who just passed my fiancé was the only one to turn too. Were both in denial he lives out his truck because he doesn't want his mom to know we ended and my family has been trying to contact me through fb, phone and wateva else but i cant bring myself to answer, i got some leaving messages like i found this and this for the wedding, im so happy for yall and proud of yall. My mom will know when something wrong so I rather not answer at all especially when ik ill probably take him back and hell be judged forever, the reason im only asking Glow where to turn is because if i ask for advice i get a bunch of cruel woman calling me dumb for wanting to work it out, i am going to try counseling but i cant get an apt til 2 weeks from now