I miscarried in August. My boyfriend and I were both 19 at the time and it was a surprise pregnancy... But I was absolutely devastated. It's been 5 months and it hurts just as bad as the first day. My boyfriend went along with me to my (very few) appointments and he held me when I couldn't contain my emotions, but I feel like I'm the only one that feels this deep pain. I feel like he's secretly relieved because we weren't ready for a baby. He may be sad to some extent but I still feel like I'm grieving alone. I don't bring my loss up as often as I need to because I don't want to be annoying, and I don't talk to the few friends I told for the same reason.