from Ttc, to pregnant & back again

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We saw that second line, and we tested and tested again and again until it sunk in. We talked about names and clothes and cribs, and we planned a nursery and maternity clothes. We googled everything and counted out days with excitement and joy. We had plans as big as the sea and hopes as high as the mountains and then way too soon it came to a tearful goodbye. 
Coming back to posts about ttc, back to ovulation and Dpo's and testing. It feels like we don't belong here. Like we got our diploma and we're supposed to move on, but here we are again. Back to the beginning. But worse, because we know we had it, we held it and we lost it. And here we are again.