what do I do!?!

I was given the option to do a c section on 2/15. My due date is 2/22. This would make it my second c section. I'm nervous and anxious at the same time. I want a c section because it's easier. But I want a vaginal birth for the ease of healing. I'm torn and don't know what to do. I'm going to ask my doctor for a membrane sweep. But I'm worried she won't do it. I'm 38 weeks. And I'm curious to know if the second time around with a c section hurts less than the first. It would be 6.5 years since I had my last c section. Help me ladies. I'm torn. And the anxiety is driving me crazy.