I love my daughter but she is far from the ideal baby. She cries for 5 hours straight every night like clockwork. I feed her, change her, burp her to no avail.. I sometimes just lay there and let her scream but she literally cries bloody murder for absolutely no reason. I give her gripe water for gas if that's even the issue yet she still cries.. I don't get much help from my SO because he's usually at work or school all day so I'm alone most of the times with her.. He's not the most helpful person either.. I pay all of the bills in the house and even now that I'm on maternity leave i still have to worry about how everything will be paid.. He never even asks.. I haven't paid most of my utilities since I went on maternity leave which is unpaid.. I applied for disability through New Jersey because they offer 6 weeks of partial pay for mother-baby bonding but I still haven't heard back and it's been 3 weeks since I had my daughter.. He owns his own house and I own mine but ever since I got pregnant he moved in with me but does not help out with anything, not one bill. He is very lazy and sleeps anytime he gets the chance.. Her dresser for her room is still in the box so that leaves me having to dig through a pile of clothes every time I need something.. I asked him to drop my WIC application at the wic office for me since I gave birth and 3 weeks later it's still sitting there... I just feel so alone.. Neglected.. My only sister lives 2 hours away and she has 3 kids of her own and my mother works all day.. It's just me and these four walls all day and I'm starting to feel like they're closing in on me.. 😔 I suffered with anxiety and depression before pregnancy and I was on lexapro and Ativan for it. Obviously I got off the medication during the pregnany which which made it extremely hard to cope with the depression but I forced myself to manage. I feel like no one ever truly asks me how I am, how I'm feeling.. I feel forgotten..