TTC for 4yrs!

This year has already been a roller coaster for us both. For those of you that don't know we got the most exciting and unexpected news. We were going to be having a baby, after many years of trying. We had settled in our minds that adoption was our next plan, and then at Christmas it all changed. But the story doesn't end there, today after 11 weeks, we found out that our baby's heart had stopped beating. There are no words that can describe the pain that we are both feeling at this moment in time. It is hard to put into words the feeling that rushes over you when you see the still form on the ultrasound screen. Your worst fears and your hope is dashed on the ground. A child that you have hoped and prayed for is no longer alive, a very piece of you has died. 1 in every 4 babies will die during pregnancy and ours happened to be that 1. What will happen next, only God knows. But at least we can say we have hope, for it is better to have loved and lost than to have never had at all. Though pain and trials we are made stronger, it is ok to talk about loosing a baby, just as it is ok to talk about loosing a family member. This is why we are telling our story, not for sympathy, but because in our sadness it's our friends and family that help carry us through. No one should do this alone and it is your prayers that will lift our heavy hearts. Together we will get through this! Thank you all for your prayers and continued support, you have all been that much needed ray of sunshine on a gloomy day, and we praise God for giving us such a phenomenal support system!