My heart is hurting so bad right now..

I feel numb and empty.. over 2 years of TTC I got a positive test on January 19th.. I surprised my husband with a photo shoot and it was so incredibly perfect..

Late last night I started to get cramps with a little bit of bleeding. By 3 o'clock in the morning they were so bad I couldn't sleep. My husband called the on-call OBGYN and she said to take Tylenol. 1000 milligrams of Tylenol and an hour later it still didn't touch the pain.. my husband ended up bringing me to the ER just before 5 this morning and it got so bad.. 6w5d and my hcg was at 2000.. they told me to go home and get my HCG retested tomorrow but I feel like it's pointless because by the time I got home it already passed..

I've never felt so heartbroken in my life. I wish I could wake up from this terrible nightmare.. 😭

We had just had our first appointment this past Tuesday and it's so unreal considering we heard it's little precious heart beating...