I've tried. I keep trying. I want to be happy but EVERY time I see a pregnancy announcement I think "f**k you bitch". It's horrible I know! I tell myself to not think that but then I think " they are just ribbing it in your face that they can get pregnant and you can't" then I think of all the mistakes I've made in my life and figure that I'm being punished for them and that's why we can't have another baby. My brain is the evil bitch and sometimes I can't control her. In my heart I want to be happy and say congratulations and smile but deep inside i'm dying knowing that it's been 2 years and 1 month TTC and I'm still no where close to getting pregnant...ugh! Sorry if you hate me but I promise to keep trying to be happy for you...even if it is your 3rd 4th 5th kid...and I can't even get #2 and so many can't even get #1...it just sucks you know...