Soooo... I think I had the best sex in my life early this morning (3am). It was my first time. I never had interest in that before, because after last night, I'm very into it.

About last night:

I don't like being in pain while having sex, I'll get dry at the very instant of it. But last night, we finally used the handcuffs I got for my bridal shower 2 years ago. My husband hand cuffed me, I was under arrest. The cuffs did hurt at first due to the fact that I had abunch of bracelets on, but he fixed that. If I didn't say "sir" I'd get slapped on the face but not to where it hurt, but to where I got apposed because I can tell he was avoiding hurting me (which is what I always thought BDSM was all about).

Believe it or not, this kind of sex builds trust. Three times, in the beginning of it all, I got scared a little. I got afraid when he hand cuffed me, because I was expecting to get beat, but instead he teased me, I was not turned on yet, because I was still waiting to get hit. I got afraid when he used the pillow to cover my eyes. When he first lays the pillow it was covering my eyes, nose and mouth. And I was thinking I'm going to suffocate, but he slid the pillow gently to where it only covered my eyes. I was still scared because I was thinking okay here comes the beating. He left my side for what felt like 10 seconds and he came back and he kissed me so passionately, I couldn't feel my his body, all I felt was his lips loving mine, and when he pulled away, I could feel the tingling of my lips wanting more, and by then he had completely won my trust.

I gag during deep throat, and even that he did gentle. The way he sucked my breast, my neck, my vagina, everything was 100 times better, I guess because I had no control and I was not allowed to tell him what to do. And he did everything and there was nothing I wanted more. I normally like being in control. And when he finally freed one of my hands and put him in me, OMG! I came 3 times, that never happens, it normally is a struggle for me to come just once. He finished me, I even slept with my feet hanging off the bed.

I would definitely love to experience this again. If you are the type who is scared to try it, you should think of it, try it and set boundaries.

I'm now a fan, I will even go watch 50 Shades of Gray and 50 Shades Darker.