a shoulder to cry on...

Ami
Sometimes talking to people on here really helps me and today I need that help....
It's almost 1 year since our miscarriage and Im still dying inside, I have had so much stress in my life at the minute I'm about to crack up. I've seen the doctor today and having a cry to her helped a little but coming home and being alone when my partner is at work is horrible! Now I'm just torturing myself..
How do I switch off? How do I stop my brain from thinking like this? How can I miss someone who was never here? How can I love someone who was never here so much my heart could explode?