Today is Presidents' Day, my kids don't have school, so I fully expected not to get dressed, not to shower, not to leave my house. Well reality hit when I woke up, realized I'd caught my daughters strep throat, and made an appointment. After I made that appointment I sat there and bawled my eyes out.  My husband and kids asked what was wrong, I said it was just my throat/ear. Went to my appointment, confirmed strep. Came home to pick up my niece, so she could ride with to get my prescription. Than I started crying about the thought of my 2 month old maybe crying at Walmart, because she'd slept through my appointment. 

I ran inside and called my OB, they asked if I wanted to harm myself or my baby, I said "NO", so I'm getting seen at 1:30 tomorrow. 

Ladies I'm tired of sleeping all day, tired of taking so many naps my 5 year old plays video games all day, I should be playing with him, teaching him, and taking him to the park. Tired of lying that my baby was up all night, as an excuse to sleep all day, because in reality she sleeps through the night and is a fantastic baby. I'm anxious all the freaking time. Sad all the time. My friends try to come hang out and help me, but I make excuses to be alone. I want the old me back, I need to be happy and functional again.