BFN at 11DPO

I know I haven't been ttc as long as some people here so I feel bad to complain about my situation but it sucks :( I'm trying not to be mad at God but it's so hard. I see all these people who don't even want babies and just get abortions or I see druggies get pregnant every year and then don't take care of them and here I am wanting a child so bad and I know I would be an excellent mom and take such good care of them and it hurts that I'm having such a hard time getting pregnant :(