Losing it rn! Am i a bad mom?

Elise
So im 4 months postpartum and im having a really hard day today! Im just so frustrated with everything. Like its not my son or my fiancee it's just i never have time to myself! And i know i have a small infant so i shouldn't be complaining but i literally don't even poop by myself!? Like i take quick short showers i don't remember the last time i did my hair or make up. My fiancee talks crap about me always being in sweats but doesn't give me time to get ready. Idk im just in meed of some me time and every time i get him to watch the baby and i try and nap or something i just her my LO screaming his head off bc my fiancee thinks he needs to cry things out (which I'm not ok with ) and he doesn't wanna hold him after a feed and just lays him down right away to play by himself! Im just tired and frustrated and i feel like a bad mom because i should love being with him , does anyone else feel like that?