I'm a horrible person.

Back story. I'm currently 15 weeks with twins and also have a 14 month old daughter I'm a stay at home mom while he only makes enough to pay the bills. Our relationship is also currently going through a rough patch for different reasons. 

Anyways I just got done trying to explain how I don't want to have these babies. I was so excited at first but I don't know how I can handle 2 more babies with all that's going on. I'm so terrified of the complications that could come with twin pregnancy. I can't help but stress and I've been depressed since we found out it was twins. I crushed him he was so excited until I told him everything. I feel like such a bad mom for saying I don't want them. But I know I will love them just as much as my other baby I'm so ashamed of how I feel and I regret saying everything to him:( but I need the support not sure how he will help though.