Bitter sweet

So yesterday we had our 12 week scan and it was with a heavy heart that we had to say goodbye to one twin. Obviously I am grateful for one but yeah I'm heartbroken.

I just think nature has a way of saying it's not meant to be but it was horrid seeing the little body not moving in the scan. I'm just sick of heartache after miscarriages, and ivf fails, bio chemical pregnancies and embryo transfers. Yes I know some women can never have children. Sadly I just felt like it was too good to be true. Having one is a miracle and I'm delighted but two would have been "special" and I just feel that for once we deserved to be "special" xx I pray this goes to plan and I'm gonna try and move on and be positive. I have a little one inside me and I'll do whatever I can to make him or her have the best time in there xx