I suffer from hormonal imbalance, migraines ,depression and bipolar disorder . It's been horrible for as long as I can remember . November /December of 2015 I finally had a doctor treat me for it with medication. It was like I was a new person. I could function so much better and be so much better. I started feeling human again. That was until we decided to have a baby. In June I had a five week misscariage due to the medication I was on. It was fatal to pregnancies. So I stopped taking my meds immediately and four weeks later (after my miscarriage ) I was pregnant again now due in the less than four weeks . These last few weeks that I've been off of work (forced maternity leave due to medical recommendation) it's been so hard. With SO working so much and me being home alone it's been really tough for me mentally. I've been falling into depression and crying all the time. I'm so worried about the effect it'll have on me and my baby after. I now can't breast feed because we are worried about postpartum that i have to go back on medication a week after I have her. I feel lost and like I have no one to talk to. Everyone says "it's the hormones" and it's not. It was like this before the meds. I just feel crazy. I posted anon to keep from future judgements . Sorry for my rant I just needed to vent somewhere .