Rough day 1

On Feb 25 I was scheduled to be induced at 5 after a total of 11 hours of laboring with horrible back labor (had to get a epidural at only 3 cm) and pushing for 45 minutes our baby boy Logan finally arrived after being a week past due. I have a 2nd degree tear that they stitched up. It has been a very stressful day. Logan has been having latching issues all day come to find out he is tongue tied and has a "cyst" polyp on his little hooha which both will be fixed tomorrow, and since he's had such bad latch he's hardly ate and with family and friends coming all day I've hardly had time to breathe let alone catch up on sleep. I've cried every feeding cause I feel like a failure cause I don't know what to or how to help him feed and plus he is just a sucker to loves sucking his hands so after failed midnight feeding we have decided to pump and bottle feed rather then exclusively breast. Which in turn means he is allowed a pacifier (which he loved from the start after we got him to eat and changed he went straight to sleep) I feel better now knowing that we can for sure monitor what he is getting and eatting but I still feel like a failure cause I asked for him to be put in the nursery for a little while cause I'm in a lot of pain and sore and just exhausted. I'm not giving up and I know tomorrow will be a better day and everything will work out but I can't help but cry right now. Maybe it's just cause I'm tired or hormormones or both but I feel like today has just drained me

Sorry about the length just Really needed to vent