how to remember our angel baby?

i found out that i was pregnant on dec 5, told my whole family about it. on dec 23 i heard the baby's heartbeat... it was wonderful... my husband was lucky/unlucky to hear the baby's beat.... ;) i loved to talk and joke with the baby. i had a dream that me and my husband were walking with the baby towards happiness... but the fun was short lived. my husband thought of hearing heartbeat on 8th week scan. i was so happy to show him the miracle we atlast made after 1 year of trying. but i started to feel my body shrink. i lost weight during 7th week. i didnt have cravings or morning sickness. i thought that i am lucky that i didnt have morning sickness and the baby was a gift. even when the baby stopped surviving , i didnt know. but 8th week was a disaster. my husband broke down in the hospital, i was standing strong. i repeatedly said " lets keep the baby inside , i dont know what they are saying. lets keep the baby". i couldnt cry and said that again and again. a huge red clot came out and i broke down.  as i wasnot letting the baby out naturally, they told me to be ready for d n c. and i ws not. but anyway we went, my family stood there not knowing what to do... they were in uttwr shock as this mever happened in my family. my husband was standing there looking at me as they were saying how this process happens and when to try again. i was looking at the baby that was having a shot. atlast d n c was over. i was in sedation as i had no sleep the previous night... its been a month n 16 days. i ll never forget my baby. 

but still i cry. today is feb 27, i told my husband how our baby's heartbeat sounded to me ...