cannot believe this!!

Can't believe I'm writing this again in the space of a couple of days! I went to see my go today with bp of 145/101! I got sent to hospital and they monitored me for a few hours and sent me home! Now I'm home I no what it feels like when it's high and Ino it's high now! I'm really at my whits end I just feel like they don't care! I'm scared and they really aren't friendly at the hospital I'm at! I can't go for a second opinion ethier because the next hospital is 3 hours away? What can I do? I'm 38 weeks today and if I'm honest I just wanna crawl into a dark hole and cry!! 5 weeks this has went on! 😔 I just feel sad and let down and I dunno weather that's my hormones or how I should be feeling !!