So today is my six week check up and I'm uber nervous. I'm 21 and just had my baby all natural so I healed pretty quickly and I was very much in heat due to not having sex until the red river stopped and when my husband and I started having sex again we did so without a condom. Now I know that was very stupid of us to do and I'm just hoping we're not pregnant because I have to start going back to working soon because we can't just live off my husbands salary. Am I wrong for not wanting to be pregnant again?? We're trying to buy a house and do other things and me being pregnant would make us happy but it's just not the right time and I know it's never really a great time for anything. Also I feel like I'm defending myself while trying to let my thoughts out. I've always been like this, trying to be the open minded, not judgmental, peaceful, and kind to others even when their unkind to me but for me I'm overly judgmental towards myself. I'm in counseling and anger management to help find out the deep rooted problem to help expel the other problems. Well I gotta go or I would write more that's on my mind. Thanks for letting me write somethings out.