needed advice/someone to talk

Sorry I just need advice or someone to talk to.
Trying for #1 for almost 8mth plus. Last mth went to consult TCM as I missed my menses for 2mth which I took HPT for times all negative so before heading to tcm I went to do ultrasound which is normal and negative. I had finish my course of TCM medication last 2 weeks before I Ovulate. Now I'm officially missed my period again for 5days...I'm feeling so down it would be like never ever gonna happen to me...And other babes are so easily getting pregnant and I'm here struggling to get...*i know there's few other lady on the same boat as I do* praying for their #1...* Omg what did I do to deserve it...Alway hoping and praying but it just dosent happen on me...FML...FYI: I just did a HPT and it turns out to be negative...