He was born via vacuum and had a little head trauma and has jaundice because of it. He's so beautiful to me and I feel so blessed to have this blessing in my life but also have been feeling extremely down and depressed because I feel so undeserving of him. My horomones are racing, I know but I'm so concerned with my baby's well-being and have been nursing him non-stop and just sit in my thoughts worrying about every little thing with him, if he's ok, and check his body for any changes or anything crazy going on. I feel crazy but I can't stop. I'm so scared of losing my baby which is an irrational thought but because he can't tell me anything I worry more. My mom says it's just my heart bursting but it's really consuming me. I pray and pray and pray that everything is ok but it's like I'm looking for answers that I can't have and I guess only time will tell what happens but I'm just so scared and hoping I'm not the only one. I cry and cry and I thought maybe leaving the house and hanging out at my moms would help but I isolate myself and my baby. Any advice would be greatly appreciated of those who are dealing or dealt with PPD