I recently got out of a relationship with a controlling boyfriend. While we were together he made me feel worthless and that he was the only thing that was good about me and my life. I finally left him when he stopped " letting" me hang out with my friends even if it was just for an hour. Right 2 days after we broke up I had sex with a guy and everything about it felt so wrong to me. After this my friends gave me these pills that they claimed would make me happy ( which they did) but I had no control and I started talking to this random guy and he took me to his house and fucked me. After that I felt disgusting and horrible but I never said no I just let it happen. Then my parents found out about me getting high and sent me to a church camp where I met another guy who wanted to use me but again I never said no I just let it happen. I felt even worse after that. I just wanted to die. After thinking about i now think that it's all completely my fault. I made bad decisions and I never said no. I feel like I'm just a disgusting whore. What are your thoughts