CAN I DO THIS??

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I've always been so sure I wanted kids and would be an awesome mom.
I have my boy the 20th via C Section due to no progression after 6hrs. 
I am Terrified!!! Of being alone with him. I'm a lot slower obviously. I'm afraid of falling asleep and not hearing him. Even tho if he signs my body wakes me up. 
I can not be the only feeling this way.. can I? 
I cried the first week multiple times a day.