just wanna vent and cry ..

I hate my boyfriend so much :( and hurt so bad to say that .. I'm sitting in my bed crying .. he acts like he just don't care about me at all .. I'm 14 wks pregnant by him this is his 3rd my first an I have yet to enjoy my pregnancy.. this weekend was his Birthday an we spent it all with his family so today when he took his kids back to their mom I expected him to wanna spend some well deserved alone time with me .. nope he wanna go out AGAIN. No invite or anything and when I said something via txt he completely disregarded my text and was all on instagram ... I hate him so much I told him today if there is someone he rather be with then just go just leave me alone ... I hate feeling like I always come last specially to someone I'm in love with and having a baby by .. but instead it home alone crying ..