I haven't been active on here in months in hopes that maybe if I stopped obsessing over getting pregnant, it would just happen. Here I am, three months later, still not pregnant. On Wednesday I was checked into the ER for extreme menstrual cramps and my left arm and right leg kept going numb and I was in and out of consciousness because it hurt so bad.. and now this coming Tuesday or Wednesday I'm going to the OBGYN to have everything checked out and to see what could potentially be causing my extremely heavy and painful periods.. I'm honestly freaking out because my mother had a really tough time conscieving my siblings and I, it took her ten years to have my now two year old sister and I'm so scared they're going to tell me I can't have children. My mom was diagnosed with endometriosis and cysts and few other things and I'm terrified I will have problems along the same lines, I'm trying to hold myself together for my fiancés sake. We've been trying to have a baby since August of 2016 and we've had zero luck, I'm really hoping the trip to the OB will put my mind at ease, but I have a feeling it wont😓😓😓