whyyy!!?

Sybil • Hello ladies! I have 2 kids stepdaughter(11) and son(4). My husband and I are in the military and are TTC baby #2
NOOO I CAVED!!!! 😫😫😫 I thought I could make it until after I missed AF (hopeful) but I couldn't!!! I tested this afternoon and there it was a BFN...whyyyy!!!!!? I have been cramping since last week and this never happens 😤 the more we try the more my freaking symptoms go off and 💥 AF shows up!! I'm really hoping she SHE STAYS AWAY 😡  and I get my BFP in a couple of days!!!Â