To watch or not to watch

My twins are scheduled for a C-Section on April 4th, let's just say I make it that far (38 weeks). I found out at my hospital tour they give you an option to use a clear sheet to watch your own c-section. I'm very torn if I want to watch them cut me open, but I'm afraid that i might miss that beautiful moment given the fact I'm having my tubes tied after. No more kids that'll make 3. Would any of you ladies watch? My husband to is also on the fence. Thanks!