devastated.

Ariane
I just learned that my friend is pregnant. They didn't even try for 2 months and I've been trying to get pregnant for almost a year now. I'm 38 and i feel time is running out, I'm scared, question the world and the universe why they hate me so much and what I've done to deserve this. The minute I learned the news i broke out into tears and more or less haven't stopped since.
In about 2 days my period is supposed to start and I already have the signs. 
And I feel so ashamed that I can't be happy for her. I just don't have the strength.
Anyone else feeling that way?
It's just not fair!!! 😢