need advice...

Penny
I just had a miscarriage, and my husband has been a bit of an ass hole about it all to be honest...tonight he appologized and has tried to make it up to me, and tried to turn me on to have sex. I would have happily abliged...but in all of this I've decided I want to try to have another baby. I had been on birth control and pregnancy was an accident, but now having just lost a baby I want to try again and he doesn't. Having a third child is a hard no for him I guess...I turned him down because the first thought that went through my head was, I could get pregnant, and that's what I want, it would be so easy...I'd be hurting all over again when he didn't finish in me, or slipped on a condom...so? When it will I get through that part?? Should We just wait a while before having sex again? I'm not on birth control now, so if we have sex without another form of birth control I could so easily become pregnant.