It was Saturday, when me and my boyfriend decided to actually go through with it. I saw his dick for the first time ever.. it was small. I was kind of happy though, since it wouldn't have hurt as bad with a bigger sized one. The bad thing is, I didn't get pleasure out of the teasing part before I lost my V card because when it comes to pleasuring me, I like my clit to be rubbed rather to be fingered. Fingering is great and all but every time he tries and goes for my clit.. I don't feel anything. It's like there is no feeling at all down there. Sooooo when it came down to us actually doing it, I wasn't physically prepared because I didn't get enough pleasure out of it.. in a matter of fact, I didn't feel any pleasure through the whole entire time. 😭 I remember he tried to eat me out but I still didn't feel anything. The worse part about all this is, he came inside me.. luckily he wore a condom though.. My first sexual experience was so bad I don't want to have sex anymore. I felt like I was giving my virginity to a wall or something. Idk how to put it.