i been always shy. never talked. im not good at socializing, i don't have any friends.... i feel like im socially awkward... and if i do talk, i'm very weird... that's just how i was raised i guess.. i'm the oldest child. im 22 years old. not even with family , i can't have a normal conversation... i just get anxiety and want to be alone.. that's just me.., i don't want to be this way but i can't help myself... i barely have a boyfriend that loves me for me... (he's more outgoing ) than me. ... i wish i was like some girls... just loud and talkative.. but unfortunately i don't talk. i rather listen to people than to talk.. lol is their something wrong with me?? should i seek help? or just be me?....