Today is just one of those days when I just want to throw in the towel and stop TTC ..... it's been 9 mos and I know it's ladies who been TTC way longer . But I This month for some reason have been really hard for me . I have long unpredictable cycles  ... I'm currently on cd24 with still no positive OPK . back in November I had my first Positive pregnancy test best feeling every took a test everyday for a week cause I just couldn't believe it ....... lines never got darker and it ended up being a chemical pregnancy.. devasted but on the other hand relieved because it was showing my body was actually kicking into baby gear after being on the pill for 8 years . Back in Then and now for this cycle I was prescribed medroxyprogestrone to kick start AF . My doctor told me that this was the last time prescribing and if nothing happens then it would be time to start testing and figure out what's going on . It's just frustrating when everyone around be having babies ( been to three babyshowers and the pass three weekends) AND even worse when people "accidentally" conceive when there is me reading everything it is on TTC down to my diet and Nothing ..... I know I know just be patient it will happen . Don't think about it just have fun .. keep praying on it .. It will happen when you least expect it .. all of this is easier said then done ....... I feel that being a mother and having a child is part of being a woman and part of me feel less then cause I can't even do that . 🙁🙁maybe this just a bad month for me ..just needed to vent to a place where I would be understood and not judge