This is a rant, so I am sorry. Our twins are now 4 months old and still on breastmilk. I pump several times a day so that we can bottles feed and so that our sitters can feed them as I am a full time working mother. I have the career, so I had no choice but to return to work if I wanted any sort of life for my children. Anywho.... there are some days where a sitter is hard to find, and we can not afford daycare, nor do we really wish to use daycare with all the horror stories out there. This coming Saturday I am an opener at my job. My opens are the days I get to spend the most time with my children when they are awake. My husband also works this coming Saturday morning at his minimum wage part time 2nd job. He has to be at work at 6am 5 minutes from the house, I have to be at work at 9am an hour away from the house. He doesn't have to unlock doors to let people in or is the boss. I do. So we are trying to find a sitter. He says he's going to ask our friends who has 3 boys of their own if I can drop them off before I go to work Saturday. Umm how about we find someone who can come here! In order for my to get to work on time an hour away on any given morning I have to be able to actually pump and get ready for work. I'd have to drop the kids off either as soon as I wake up, wake up the kids feed them quick... which sometimes isn't quick, and prepare the bottles for the day. so I'd have to wake up at 5am. I'd then either have to take them over immediately and come back home to pump and get ready ect..  and have a possibility of being late becaus who knows how the morning will really go. OR let them wake up when they wake up. Have my alarm set to a time before they usually get up and pump then and prepare their bottles. By then the sitter could be there because the kids have been seeking until 8 or 830 lately. At this point I should be able to leave and make it to work on time. But if I allow the kids to wake up naturally and then have to take them somewhere after feeding them.... I will be late. There is no doubt about that. My boss has already told me I am not allowed to be late for opens after it happened twice because I've had to try to pump, make bottles, pack 2 kids up and drop them off. As all you mothers know, that can be an impossible task. So after telling my husband I will absolutely not drop them off that early again and mess up their sleeping. Because what mother wants to stop their baby from sleeping all night long??? He rolls his eyes at me, says he doesn't understand why it's so hard. That he doesn't have a problem getting them packed up. I looked at him, I'm sure with furry in my eyes, and said "that's because you don't pump, or prepare the bottles for the day. Or have to put some makeup on and business attire so you are presentable for work. All you have to do is run your fingers through your hair, put on your wrinkle resistant work pants and polo which takes 2 seconds, feed them, then load the kids up and go." He walked away from me pissed off mumbling something about how it's not his fault I do those things. Hmm well maybe if I could trust him to make bottles or I don't know.... get a real job then maybe I wouldn't have to do so much. The one time I left him in charge of making bottles, he decided he didn't need to give them one because I didn't tell him "how" to make it. Mind you he has seen me poor the freaking milk into bottles and warm it up. Not to mention I had shown him numerous times in the past. His claim was he wasn't sure if I added anything to the bottles. So that particular day I came home to crying hungry babies because he didn't feed them and it was my fault..... so yes I do have to make them. I have to make sure my babies have food. It's part of my responsibility as a mother. And as long as I'm able to produce enough breastmilk for 2 babies, I'm going to pump. He doesn't pay the bills so it's not like he takes into consideration how much we are saving. Ugh!!! Men can be complete idiots!!! On the bright side, I have 2 adorable babies.