hymen? (may be tmi, I wouldn't know)

So my fingers are to my cervix, and I heard a pop so I checked my fingers because I thought I did something. But nothing was wrong 🤷‍♀️. But to the point, I don't think I ever had a hymen and googled it-not all women are born with it-however I remember being in the shower (about a year ago) and i was so sexually frustrated that I just went for it but saw a tiny bit of blood but heard that if the hymen is torn, you bleed quite a bit🤔